kyle_norrick

So I have been thinking that a lot of change is going to happen over the next 2 months. The first thing I intended to do was move my livejournal. So here you go, the link to my new one, add me as a friend. I'm sure I'll find most of you again, but if I forget someone, just visit my new journal and add meh!



YAAAAAAY


LINK:  http://alexanderkarafu.livejournal.com

That's right. Yours truly is tired of being associated by another name that has nothing to do with my actual name, nor the name of my 'sona. So as of now, I am moving to another journal. I have said my farewells to this one, and am going to create the account soon (about as soon as it takes me to come up with something else to post about). So yeah. I will edit in a link and such after it is done.


SEE YA!

woof.

So yeah, been a while since a good blah took place, so why not now. I have a lot of things to speak about.

First off, I am torn. Torn, torn, torn. I have not been actively looking for someone, but things have sort-of developed between myself and two people. That's right. Two. Oh. My. God. I hate making decisions like this. Last time I made a relationship based decision, it didn't end so well. So I need to think this through. Here is the info behind these two peeps:

Guy #1 - Really nice, sweet, smart, funny. He is also good looking, which is a bonus. Seems like an obvious choice, but wait, he lives about an 1 1/2 hours away from me. Which is blech. It isn't that I want to see my significant other all the time, it's that I want the choice to see them when I want to. I don't want to always have to wait till I'm off work for a significant amount of time to see them. It sucks.

Guy #2 - Nice, funny as hell, thinks I'm adorable (quoted saying that, which is def. a plus in my book), and he is good looking. Bonus, he lives here in Auburn. Turns out this guy is the guy my mother wanted to set me up with...weird huh? I actually like him, I think he's cool and I'd like to get to know him more. However, he isn't a furry. Now, while I don't want to say that I'm not ever going to date someone who isn't a furry, it seems like a challenge. And to anyone who dated someone after being open with their fur-ness, please toss me some advice.

But yeah, so that's the deal. Either the non-fur or the far away fur. *sigh* Why can't there just be a nice, funny, smart, attractive fur here in Auburn that isn't taken? It's like asking for a million dollars from Ghandi.


On to other things, I'm getting tired of some of the customers at the good ol' CFA. I made a list today describing those who I hated. Here it is:

1. People who come up to my register, but aren't ready to order.
2. People who order, but are not prepared to pay money...and seem to think they don't have to pay for about 5 seconds.
3. People who don't know how to order food at a fast food restaurant.
4. People who order things that we obviously don't have, or who ask us if we have stuff that we obviously have.
5. People who order things after we have already put in the order and taken their payment.

I will make a video later putting specific (quoted) scenarios to each of these. Please tune into my youtube channel, http://www.youtube.com/karafutoken/, and watch it.

I can't wait for RCFM!!

That's the end.

So I don't have enough alone time at home to do as many blogs updating people on my life. So I think I'll stick to a weekly to bi-weekly update on that end, more along the lines of when I hang out with people, dance, or have some news story to tell people about.

Anyways, life has been...well life. It's been getting difficult, and these finals coming up are going to eat me alive. But I think I will use them as an excuse as to why I did not get a 3.0 and keep my scholarship. Might as well right? Since I can blame it on my job (and therefore my parents who forced me to get one). Awesome! Which reminds me, I'm going to change my password on my university account so my mother can't get into it. Because like a loser, I told her what my usual password was. But she of course forgot. But I want to avoid her somehow remembering it in a epiphany.

My love live is...well..it's not really there. My mother tried to set me up with this guy. I met him the other night, albeit we were both wasted, but he seemed okay. Nice, funny, good looking, smart. A lot of the things I look for in a guy. However, he smokes...yes...pot. *sigh* I don't hate pot smokers, but I don't like them either. I'd rather them just not do it, especially near me. It's just the smell. Nothing about the fact that it's a drug or whatever, I don't care about that shit. I just care that it smells horrible. Yeah. I could look past that, but the fact still remains that...*takes a deep breath* he's not a furry. Now I know that shouldn't be something I should base this on, but I'm afraid of dating someone who will only end up breaking up with me when he finds out that I'm a fur. I suppose I could just introduce him to the gang, and if he accepts them as furs, maybe he'll accept me as one? I dunno. I just hate that people automatically assume you are into doing stuff with animals. *shivers* I just like the community, honestly, I could do without all the sex.

My mother says she misses me. *sigh* I miss her too, but I don't like hanging around her because every time I do, my school work always comes up. I'd rather talk about my dance project, or maybe even this guy she wants me to date (well not 'wants' me to, but she just thought because we were both single, it'd be worth a shot). I understand asking, "Hey, how is school going?" That's easy. "It's good." "Any projects coming up? Anything fun you're learning?" "No projects, but we are acting out a scene from Tempest." "That sounds like fun." THE END. Stop asking me about my grades. They are just that: My Grades. I'm responsible for them, and I'm taking the consequences as they come. I'm sure that they will tell me that I shouldn't take out loans as a student, but they did it too. They took out a lot more than I'll need to take out, which is only going to be about $10,000. It might come down to me using them to get the loan from the university, but hopefully I can just get it from my bank. Though I don't know how well that will all pan out. I'm also still worried that the university is going to still charge me for stuff even though I didn't register for classes. *ponders*

I guess I'll find out sooner or later.

Well, that's all for now. Back to Poke'mon and chatting. See ya!

Woof!

I am moving to Video blogs!!! So yeah, I've been making a few, and thought they end up good. This might be my last written post, as I can fit most of my life into 10 minutes. Check them out!

http://www.youtube.com/user/KarafutoKen?feature=mhw5

Cause bam!

Woof.

How should I feel after all this time?

3 months and I never thought it would end, but here we are. This sucks. I don't really even know what happened. Just school and work dominated my life more than I wanted it to, and in reality, it still does. I think that's the reason. It isn't that I don't love him, because I do. I've just never heard of a break-up that was hard on both parties involved...damn media. I don't know how I should feel, and I don't know if it would change anything.

I wish I could fast-foward to this summer and the next year, when I'll be working, just working. Maybe then I'll be ready for a relationship. I don't know if I made a mistake yet or not, but I suppose I should view it as "what's done is done."

Does that seem harsh? I don't know, to me it does. It seems insensitive. Then again, I think everything I say is insensitive, because I don't really know how sensitive people are untill I upset them. Which sucks.

I feel like that because I care about him, I should be with him. But then I know it is just going to end up the same way. I just don't want to hurt him, or really anyone, for that matter. So I think I'm going to stray from having a relationship for now. I think that's the best course of action, or at least I hope it is.

In other news, FWA is Thursday. I still want to go, and I hope we can still have a good time as friends.
However, I am still worried about my transportation, AND how I'm going to explain why it is I'm going to be in Atlanta to my sister. I think I am going to stick with it being a wedding.

I need suggestions...or whatever...I don't know.

woof

It's been a while.

I feel like THE worst person on the planet right now.

That' about it.

So yeah, I hardly text at all. In all honesty, I hate phone calls and I hate texting.

Phone calls are so impersonal, and I hate not seeing how a person is reacting to me.
Texting is tedious, and I don't like to do it, especially with the phone I have now. If I had an iPhone or something like that, maybe I'd be more into it. But not right now.

Woof.

Well, that's it. My break from school is gonna have to happen. I found out today that I am not going to get an A in my History course. Heh, somehow I always knew this was going to happen. And deep down, I don't know if I care.

Anyways, telling my parents is going to be difficult. But it's not like their lives are going to change. I'm going to build credit, take out a loan, and pay for my last three years. Then I'll pay off those loans. Simple right. I hope so.

The worst my parents can do is take away my car, which means I won't be able to move at all for a while. I'll still go to Auburn, as my mom has tenure, so that means I'll still have my employee waiver. Which means I'll only have to pay about $10,000 for the last three years.

I don't know...

I need to figure all of this out today, which is why I'm calling in sick. I can't register because I wouldn't have the money to pay for classes. If I do end up somehow keeping my scholarship, I can register in June for core classes.


All in all, as my parents won't be affected financially, I don't know if I will tell them untill I have a plan. But I'm not going to worry about registration now. I need to focus on my classes and make the best grades I can make.

Sadly, my parents may just have to realize that I"m not the academic type. Something they refuse to see.


So yeah, to tell them or not? What do you think?

I need this weekend to come faster than ever now.

Dogs. The end.

And really? "Proclivity?" That's the product of thesaurus use, if not, good for you.

Anyways, it's dogs because they are cuddly, fun, and they are just plain awesome. Plus, they are beautiful animals.